I just wanted to share an exerpt of a reading with a client today regarding their issues with dealing with negativity of others and relying on other peoples’ comments about you to create who you “think” you are. I thank you all for reading! Wishing you many blessings! Marie
I can completely relate to what you are going through, and I went through the same. What I did pick up is maybe a lesson for you to be able to stand on your own two feet in spiritual strength. Ask yourself if it matters if all of the comments were negative comments? Does it matter if they were all positive comments? Usually we look to get recognition from others to reinforce we are right or wrong about something, but this is where we completely ignore what our inner voice or intuition is telling you. Sometimes it’s fine to listen to others’ comments, and can help you sort out your true feelings of agreeing or disagreeing with them. This is a spiritual road for everyone, kind of like a spring cleaning of your soul. It may feel very scary or confusing because at times we are overcome with negative emotions or feelings. They are supposed to resurface so you can examine what you are feeling and sort things out- like the spring cleaning example again. Is this negative feeling shirt something I want to put back in my soul closet, or give it away? There will be a lot more life lessons that will be bumpy on your path to enlightenment. What helped me was to exercise every day, meditate every day, and I noticed that what I ate changed my mental state. Negative thoughts were like a whisper to me and you will find the “real you” that you are searching for. I found that the fake sugar and the processed foods fluctuated my emotions immensely.
Everyone is on the path, it’s just different for everyone. So you are indeed on the path. Another suggestion because you are concentrating so internally, that maybe you can explore externally to give your mind something else to think about. It is in giving that you receive, and from my own experience of learning to give either my time, or to strangers, or doing readings for others answers the very same questions I was wondering about. I used to be the type that if there was a problem, I should sit down and brainstorm and think of all the different possible solutions. I have learned that this actually blocks the real answer from coming to you. I’ve explained this before to a client that it is like a tube of water. Force the water by squeezing the tube will prevent or block the flow of water. Stay still and hold the tube with support and faith, the water flows effortlessly.
Negative thoughts usually keep coming back from time to time, but don’t be too hard on yourself. It’s the process of moving to the next level of spirituality. Just keep going. I don’t know if this is you, but my mind used to fill me with doubt and fear when I started my spiritual awakening, for fear it will lose the control it has. If this resonates with you, maybe it could be the reason for you too. Just keep going. Be open to notice the signs from the universe that you are on the right track.
I hope this helped you in any way. I am also on the spiritual journey, but I remember when I was at the stage of confusion and feeling of being lost, and if I am on the right direction or not. Don’t worry and just understand it’s a process.
I wish you many blessings and clarity!