Hi Everyone- I hope this blog post is found by people who need to hear this. I have been experiencing this week incidents that people expect things of me that I do not feel drawn to or cannot provide or help. I felt cornered and accused and bullied. I felt pressured into doing what they expect me to do. In the past I would not listen to my intuition and regardless of how I felt, I would still do as expected, ending up feeling worse about myself. I am now understanding what feels comfortable to me to do and not do. I have lost friends because they have had expectations of me that I could not fulfill with both of us ending friendships. I have been crushed by ending relationships, but I had to be true to myself and what I feel drawn to helping and not. The same goes for myself that I cannot expect people to help if they are not drawn to helping me.
I went into meditation and channeling looking for answers from my guides, and I also consulted with a friend who is a fellow channeler. Through my guides I understood that this is a life lesson for both myself and the other person. It is a test to know myself and to understand my feelings regardless of how others judge me. To understand I was doing or not doing what is best for me. Also to understand that when I do ask other people for help and they do not, to respect their wishes as I have done to others. There is also an evolution of friends that do come and go that serve their purpose to us. Everything is in constant change and that includes friendships. Also if we are not drawn to help or participate, it could be that there is someone else that would be better suited for them that the Universe/God has set up. Everything happens for a reason in the best interest of all people involved. It is just the perspectives of the people that label things bad or good. I was also given advice from my friend she had felt that it was a push so I could be accustomed to rejection and being judged during my spiritual path and also profession. The profession chosen is not an easy road and will be full of people who judge and doubt she says.
Before channeling advice from guides, I would overthink and replay the scenarios over and over and what I could have done differently. This worked me up even more about the situation instead of accepting and letting go. I feel more at peace now with myself and I also would like to say to everyone that if you don’t feel good about helping someone, and it doesn’t feel right to you, it is OK to say no regardless of how they feel. How the other feels is merely a reaction to an expectation they have of you from their world. Some people will make you feel bad for your decisions. This is a test to know yourself and you will see even though it may feel bad to disappoint someone, it will also be a life lesson of your soul growth.
I wish you all much courage for standing your ground! I leave you with the Seven of Wands card that popped in my head and I do welcome any comments or feedback of your experiences or thoughts.
Wishing you much Blessings! Marie